"Dear Fidel ..." writes Marita Lorenz before she sets off on a trip to Cuba in spring 2000, a trip into her past with Fidel Castro. Film-maker and three-time winner of the Grimme Prize Wilfried Huismann accompanied her on this trip and documented the dangerous drama of her lifelong love to Fidel Castro. At the same time Marita's story provides a breathtaking glimpse into the secrets of the Cold War. In 1959, at the age of 19, Bremen-born Marita meets Fidel Castro for the first time on board the "Berlin". Her father is the captain. Marita stays on in Havana as Fidel's lover and becomes pregnant as a result. After she loses her child through a forced abortion and Fidel also loses interest in her, the CIA sees her as an ideal tool for murdering Fidel Castro. In Miami she is subjected to intensive brainwashing for this purpose. "They made a robot out of me," recalls the 61-year-old now. The "trainers" knew that she had been in the Bergen-Belsen concentration camp as a child and had been raped at the age of 7 after the war. "They said anyone who had survived Bergen-Belsen could also work for the CIA." When she returns to Fidel's suite in the Habana Libre Hotel with the poison capsules, she spontaneously decides to throw them into the bidet. "Love was stronger". Marita returns to her employer without having accomplished her mission. The further course of her life is thus mapped out. She is an accessory to governmental crimes of the USA. "It is easy to get into the CIA, but ...